Day 123 - Another love day

It's late and I am blogging. But I don't want to miss this chance to tell you the things that are running on my mind right now.

first one - that someone is courting me. Well, a few hours ago, I decided not to think about this anymore. Want to know why? Secret.haha

second one - an inspiration.

I know I put Jonathan Groff's image for this post. But (okay, I'll just discuss that inspiration that came to my mind).

I was reading a book and is watching the tv at the same time (i love multitasking,haha) when I came across this man on a documentary show. His discussion was about a reserved forest. And I just felt like that kind of man is very attractive. Then these random images came to my mind (sorry. My thoughts are really at random at the moment)

- My love and I in the forest. He is asking me about what do I really want to do in my life. Then I told him "I want to sing". And he gave me that smile that sweeps me off my feet every time, telling me how good my dream is and that it is achievable.

- all the moments I want to share with my love (where are you?haha)

* ruffling his hair. I think I'm always attracted to guys with the just-woke-up hair do because I have a constant longing of always playing with my man's hair. I love doing that. haha

* Sitting in the middle of the forest where he would ask me to marry him. Then I'll say "no". Let's try to be chaste for a year.hahaha weird idea!

* my man simply fetching me from the house whenever we need to go out and accompanying me back home

I wonder. I had all these boyfriends but I never felt the real courtship.

I want to be loved.

Do I want a boyfriend right now? I don't know. I'm not even interested with guys who try to date me but don't seem attractive for me.

Do I just want a man? Maybe. Because I'm constantly longing for some tender but strong arms that could hug me every time I feel weak. Might be God, a father, a brother or a friend.

I don't need a man really to make my life complete and happy right now. But I want a man that will love me and that I will love. Because I can't wait to feel that security. I can't wait to start spending my every day growing with a person that you choose to be your other half, your better half.

Love for me.

Love for the world.

Goodnignt!!

Day 91 - To My Love

Dearest Love,

I just cried. Well, just a few tears. Everytime I see men that are so sincere with their love for their ladies, I cry. Maybe it is the yearning in my heart. Maybe there are just some things about my self that I need to improve to attract you into my life. Like constantly praying for you. Its just that I don't know if I'm really ready. I don't know if I can take care of a relationship once I found you. I've messed up. And everyday I wake up to find myself thinking about how could I make life worthwhile. Maybe this life is all about choosing the road that best suits you, and taking that road, never stopping no matter what. I'm sad. I still can't find a religion that will cater to my belief. I wanted to be a good church-goer, but I just can't force myself to believe things that are hurting me. And I love my Father so much, much more than all the words the Bible can say. And I firmly believe that my Father loves His people, and wouldn't want to break the world, just to make all things work out. I know that my mind is so feeble and cannot understand His ways, but I only believe in His love and unfailing trust. I just hope I can talk to Him, He maybe is not so proud of me, I'm not sure, but everyday I will try to be a better person, for Him, and for myself.

I love you. I want to be ready to meet you. I want you to love a whole person, so that we could both help each other fill our love tanks to the fullest each day of our life. I love you. And I know you'll be there, supporting me every step of the road I've chosen. I love you and all the things about you. I want to meet you. I want to be with you and to love you the way you want to be loved. I want to share every thought, every feeling I have with you. I want to spend the rest of my lifetime with us together, looking in one direction, growing in love and faithfulness everyday.

I love you.

And I will be hungry for your love, and I know I will see you soon.

Day 90 - There are still good hearts out there

Today, I am posting some of the inspiring ideas that I was able to encounter a few weeks ago. Reading blogs and following other people about what they do is really fun specially when they do it for a cause - life and people.

In this post, I will be using pictures, posts coming from other people. You can go and follow them on your own. You'll love 'em.

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http://danisoul.typepad.com/

I already forgot how I came across her blog. All I remember was that I was impressed by her ideas and way of writing, and that I felt she is up to doing special things. And I followed her blog. Lately, she has done a very unique deed which I super loved. Here is the exact post: ( to Ms. Daniela Siegenthaler , I'll be reblogging your post, hope you don't mind. I really want to share what you have done to my friends and readers. Advance thanks!)

the wish tree: part two

i really didn't know what to expect after we left the wish tree that first day. would someone take down the sign and bag of tags for wishing? would anyone even find it? would people really do some wishing? i just couldn't predict or imagine, but knew that whatever took place next, it would be a journey of sorts. the first night i went back to the tree, there had been no wishes yet added to the ones faith and i had placed that monday. the tree is not directly off of any path, so it's not an obvious find. but the second time i returned, i was totally and wholly overcome by emotion, and felt a kind of magic unfolding:

Comments


oh yes! this is the magic wishing tree. and still...every time i hear more new wishes i get choked up with tears.

this is such a wonderful idea dani. you give people hope and a little magic in their lives by creating a written wish and hanging it on this beautiful tree.

i am convinced the tree feels all the good vibes coming from those wishes. well really we all do don't we?

Posted by: sazzy | 14 July 2010 at 23:16


oh dani! this is amazing, what you've started. all that energy of love and hope and belief, with somewhere to go. what an amazing peek into people's hearts right here "i wish she'd notice" and "i wish that someone special would come into my life"

all of this is so very good. you are inspiring me. and bringing me to tears (of happiness)

xo

Posted by: meredith winn | 15 July 2010 at 02:34


oh, how wonderful!!! such a happy feeling.

Posted by: jodi | 15 July 2010 at 07:42


oh, tearing up over here. I so love this project and am glad to see it grow. what a special place you have made.
I think I might like to try this in my little neck of the woods.
magic.

Posted by: vanessa | 15 July 2010 at 12:03


And yet again, your pictures turned out much lovelier than mine. *sighs* You've had more practice, I suppose. I love them so!

The tree really is a magical place, isn't it? *sighs* I love it there. Thanks so much for sharing the experience with little ol' me. :)

Love love.

Posted by: Faith | 15 July 2010 at 13:12


wow. just like all the people who have commented here, I too cried. Tears of joy and surprise. I was really impressed and inspired during part 1 of the wishing tree, but when I saw all the pictures for the part 2, I just realized there are still a lot of people with hope here in our world. So touching. Keep it up. I love your blog :)

Posted by: Shiva143vish | 15 July 2010 at 13:51


This is incredibly moving and beautiful. Thank you for doing it, and thank you for sharing it. Amazing....

Posted by: Anne | 15 July 2010 at 14:35


That is one of the most awesome things I have ever seen! I have chills and goosebumps and all kinds of good feelings now! What a great idea!

Posted by: Maegan | 15 July 2010 at 18:14


utterly and completely moving. thank you for sharing this.

Posted by: gonzomama | 15 July 2010 at 21:00

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http://twitter.com/PostSecrets

I just saw this account when my eyes fell on the recent tweets and I immediately followed it. Everytime I read all the tweets here, my heart's crushed. I feel weak that a lot of people are sad and lonely but at the same time it inspires me to do something worthwhile for other people. Here are some of the tweets.

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Isn't life just becomes lovely when you exhaust it helping and loving people? I hope to do such great things in my life. If each one of us has these kinds of thoughts, wouldn't the world be much,much happier?

Day 66 - Thinking of Me

Here yea. I haven't updated my love project for months. I might be using this love project as my main blog as of the moment. So let's go on and discuss what I have been up to the past weeks.


I am going to gauge my love for certain areas of my life as of the moment. 5 hearts. 5 being the highest, 1 the lowest (of course). Let's begin.





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School Love - 1 star



Well, this is my blog and I am not going to fake it with myself. Yes, I am not loving school so much right now. I feel lonely, and today I just ditched all my subjects. (I attended one and there was no one in the classroom. tsk!)

I don't know if it's just the start of the irregular vibes but I'll cope up. soon :)


Quit fear Rachel!!



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Work Love - 3 stars
Just fair. I need my job because I'll be paying my tuition fee. I'll have to be very competitive. Top boxes, here I come!



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Passion Love - 5 stars

Everyday of my life, I grow hungry of theatre. And I think subconsciously, I get the satisfaction of that part of me evrytime I watch glee. And I watch glee everyday. LITERALLY. haha!


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Love Life Love - Confused

Sigh. I want him.












signing out

Day 5 - How to Find Your One True Love

Step # 2 - Know what's stopping you inside



With this step, it tells us to have a strong conviction with whatever we want. It's the only way to get it.


Where there is no clarity of purpose, no great thing will be achieved. I've long learned that's God's universe simply responds to what we want --- clearly, repeatedly,passionately.






See? A lot of what I'm reading are pointing to this fact -- that whatever our minds conceive, we achieve. Seriously, I hope people will use this great,great gift. Pardon to the non-believers. Let us believe what we want to believe, and you behave the way you ought to be. (haha, bad,bad girl).













There you go. You need to be clear with what you want. If you want to get married, then make sure that every piece of you declares what you want. Sometimes, what people want are different from what they subconscously think and feel. And with that, there is no clarity of purpose. That means, that whatever things are stopping you from getting that relationship that you want, either moral and past baggages, guilts, sadness, traumas and the like. Shun them all and let only the positivism of your desire fill your whole being. See for yourself what your mind can actually bring to your life.
















Reminder: He guides us. Be guided :)

Day 4 - How to find your One True Love

I haven't been blogging for days now so i better just update this project with what I have been reading for the week. It's Bo Sanchez's 'How to find your ONE true Love'. I'll be dividing the steps that Bo provided for days 4-10, so enjoy :)

We think that God's will is found out there, somewhere in the stars. That's not true. God's will is found within. Ultimately, God's will is your deepest desire.

STEP # 1: Take Responsibility for finding your One True Love

This one has a quite lengthy explanation (though I wouldn't dare explain everything here. What's the book for? haha). In here, he just tells us that we are the ones who look for love. God gave us the mind to decipher things, one of his wondrous gifts to us. Why leave your love decisions to signs from God or wait for magical occurences. Here are myths that Bo broke on this chapter:

Myth 1- Just WAIT. Marriage will come knocking at your door when you least expect it.

Total no no. Who ever said that a groom suddenly pops out of nowhere? Love, and more so marriage, are some things that take time. And need us to decide. We do not wait for love to come. We pursue love, the right way. Try become Juan Tamad in love and land as World's No. 1 hopeless single.haha

(additonal myths will be found on the other posts. that's how Bo wrote the book.haha)

Additionally, there are 4 actions that can be done for this step.

Action 1- Form a support team around you.

Action 2- Grow your character.

Action 3- get emotionally healthy.

Action 4- Know yourself ( for you to know what you want and don't want).

I'll be following the steps that Bo gave. I'll keep you guys updated. Lets get on with the discussion first :)

Day 3 - Accept the pain then throw it away

ive' been up, down, tryin' to get the feeling again
all around, tryin' to get the feelin again ...




(deep sigh)



I don't know. Maybe I am subconsciously sad though I'm trying to be happy. (Rachel! how can you be happy when you're listening to Duffy's I'm Scared?) But I would really want to attract positive things to my life. If I need to get over "you" I will, right now. I am supposed to be taking responsibility for finding the love of my life just as Bo Sanchez says on his books. Do we really need to acknowledge that we are hurting before we finally get over something that is making us extremely sad?

Okay, then I'll acknowledge it, so that I can finally throw it away. I'll just be posting my goodbye then in a few lines.


You made me feel love
Felt like I was home
Now all came to nothing
And I want to forget you

Is it easy to leave even our friendship?
You answer me.
Or I would rather not.
Some come and go.
Hope we can get past though this and be friends.


For now, goodbye.





(deep breath)

So now, I will banish every sadness. To be ready for another love, I need to have an open heart. Okay, let's divert this discussion then. I will tell you (yes you, who is reading my blog right now) what type of relationship I want right now.





I want to marry already. I want to finish school, to continue work and to fulfill my dreams in life knowing that I have that one person with me who will support and will be with me all the way. I know I have my family and very large circle of friends, and don't get me wrong. I really am lucky with all the people that I have attracted to my life. All of them have in so many ways brought the best in me. It's just that I know myself best. I grow and achieve best when I'm in love. And I am so past being single. I want to be in love. To be happily married. I don't care if I'm young. Id rather enjoy youth married, going out with friends with my husband, being in a lifetime courtship with him, planning all my life and future with him rather than spending it wondering who I'll spend my lifetime with. I want to start and live my life now with him. I now it's acary and weird for a lot of people. But try to think of it without all your prejudices for a few minutes. Isn't it the happiest feeling?

Day 2 - - 3 Love Stories

I just heard three love stories. I know that I really intend this project to be happy, but I do know that if I will stick to this as a REAL-to-LIFE project, i know negatives can't sometimes be avoided.

I just had to listen to three love stories. And the task is to learn from these stories.



Story 1
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She is so in love. He is so in love. Then he gets in love with her bestfriend. Love and relationship dilemmas. They broke up and they all remained friends up to now. After two weeks, he and the best friend asked for her blessing, to allow their love to push through. She gave it. But they can't continue it. Unless they will accept all the negative things people around them and even people they love no to hurt or affect them.



Story 2
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She is so in love. He is so in love. She always cries. ALWAYS. He shouts at her when a lot of people are around. She is a martyr. Always paranoid and sad. She does love him. Him, maybe. Wrong way though for me. She tried to break free, he wouldn't give in.




Story 3
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my story. Not available.













Lessons?
hmm, I don't really know. Listening to stories of other people make you realize what you want n a relationship and if there are some things that you might be doing wrongly. What can you say about their stories. I do hope for goodness for them. I want happy stories to learn from next time.


And of course, I want my story not to just have a happy ending, because it's not always the end that justifies the means. I want a happy body for the story, The happy love story.