Day 101 - To all the people loving me

I can't say much here. I thank you so much guys. so much. My life is always bright because of you guys. I'll make a soft copy of our photo mosaic once I got the time and know how to do it via photoshop. haha


I'm blessed :)

super. :)

Day 99 - Personal Therapy

Do you believe that everyone has their own mental issues? Well, that was an exaggeration but I do believe that everyone of us has something to fix about his own self.


So here I am. Fixing something about myself. I tell you this is an ongoing therapy. Once in a while I always have to talk to myself, separate myself from my therapist-self so that I can help myself (confusing?).



Do I have a perfect life right now? Well I don't. But deep inside,I'm happy. When I think of all the good things in my life, I can't force myself to be sad (which is one very good thing if I may say). I have been a mess and a waste for the past weeks, but I think all of those were a result of one thing -- cowardice. I'm a coward, yes I am. That's why I keep missing my classes. Because I cannot face the wrath of my teachers, I cannot face the hard examinations and the confusing seat works. I am a coward because I can't face the results of my sloth or simply the results of not being able to plan my days and my time right.

All of it WAS my fault.
But if the day has passed already, then it's a part of a PAST.


I can move on.
I can leave all those bad things behind.
Am I afraid to face every day? Yes I am.

But I want to be free.
I want to be strong. I am strong-willed. I can easily make up my mind. I can do a lot of things but I don't know why I'm hiding, hiding behind this coward mask, because this is not me.






Am I ready to move on?












I will make up my mind that I am ready. and everything will follow.


Godbless to all our endeavors.

Day 98 - Some thoughts

I'm happy with the company of my friends but I'm still craving for you. :D

I know you're coming.

Can't wait. :)

Day 91 - To My Love

Dearest Love,

I just cried. Well, just a few tears. Everytime I see men that are so sincere with their love for their ladies, I cry. Maybe it is the yearning in my heart. Maybe there are just some things about my self that I need to improve to attract you into my life. Like constantly praying for you. Its just that I don't know if I'm really ready. I don't know if I can take care of a relationship once I found you. I've messed up. And everyday I wake up to find myself thinking about how could I make life worthwhile. Maybe this life is all about choosing the road that best suits you, and taking that road, never stopping no matter what. I'm sad. I still can't find a religion that will cater to my belief. I wanted to be a good church-goer, but I just can't force myself to believe things that are hurting me. And I love my Father so much, much more than all the words the Bible can say. And I firmly believe that my Father loves His people, and wouldn't want to break the world, just to make all things work out. I know that my mind is so feeble and cannot understand His ways, but I only believe in His love and unfailing trust. I just hope I can talk to Him, He maybe is not so proud of me, I'm not sure, but everyday I will try to be a better person, for Him, and for myself.

I love you. I want to be ready to meet you. I want you to love a whole person, so that we could both help each other fill our love tanks to the fullest each day of our life. I love you. And I know you'll be there, supporting me every step of the road I've chosen. I love you and all the things about you. I want to meet you. I want to be with you and to love you the way you want to be loved. I want to share every thought, every feeling I have with you. I want to spend the rest of my lifetime with us together, looking in one direction, growing in love and faithfulness everyday.

I love you.

And I will be hungry for your love, and I know I will see you soon.

Day 90 - There are still good hearts out there

Today, I am posting some of the inspiring ideas that I was able to encounter a few weeks ago. Reading blogs and following other people about what they do is really fun specially when they do it for a cause - life and people.

In this post, I will be using pictures, posts coming from other people. You can go and follow them on your own. You'll love 'em.

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http://danisoul.typepad.com/

I already forgot how I came across her blog. All I remember was that I was impressed by her ideas and way of writing, and that I felt she is up to doing special things. And I followed her blog. Lately, she has done a very unique deed which I super loved. Here is the exact post: ( to Ms. Daniela Siegenthaler , I'll be reblogging your post, hope you don't mind. I really want to share what you have done to my friends and readers. Advance thanks!)

the wish tree: part two

i really didn't know what to expect after we left the wish tree that first day. would someone take down the sign and bag of tags for wishing? would anyone even find it? would people really do some wishing? i just couldn't predict or imagine, but knew that whatever took place next, it would be a journey of sorts. the first night i went back to the tree, there had been no wishes yet added to the ones faith and i had placed that monday. the tree is not directly off of any path, so it's not an obvious find. but the second time i returned, i was totally and wholly overcome by emotion, and felt a kind of magic unfolding:

Comments


oh yes! this is the magic wishing tree. and still...every time i hear more new wishes i get choked up with tears.

this is such a wonderful idea dani. you give people hope and a little magic in their lives by creating a written wish and hanging it on this beautiful tree.

i am convinced the tree feels all the good vibes coming from those wishes. well really we all do don't we?

Posted by: sazzy | 14 July 2010 at 23:16


oh dani! this is amazing, what you've started. all that energy of love and hope and belief, with somewhere to go. what an amazing peek into people's hearts right here "i wish she'd notice" and "i wish that someone special would come into my life"

all of this is so very good. you are inspiring me. and bringing me to tears (of happiness)

xo

Posted by: meredith winn | 15 July 2010 at 02:34


oh, how wonderful!!! such a happy feeling.

Posted by: jodi | 15 July 2010 at 07:42


oh, tearing up over here. I so love this project and am glad to see it grow. what a special place you have made.
I think I might like to try this in my little neck of the woods.
magic.

Posted by: vanessa | 15 July 2010 at 12:03


And yet again, your pictures turned out much lovelier than mine. *sighs* You've had more practice, I suppose. I love them so!

The tree really is a magical place, isn't it? *sighs* I love it there. Thanks so much for sharing the experience with little ol' me. :)

Love love.

Posted by: Faith | 15 July 2010 at 13:12


wow. just like all the people who have commented here, I too cried. Tears of joy and surprise. I was really impressed and inspired during part 1 of the wishing tree, but when I saw all the pictures for the part 2, I just realized there are still a lot of people with hope here in our world. So touching. Keep it up. I love your blog :)

Posted by: Shiva143vish | 15 July 2010 at 13:51


This is incredibly moving and beautiful. Thank you for doing it, and thank you for sharing it. Amazing....

Posted by: Anne | 15 July 2010 at 14:35


That is one of the most awesome things I have ever seen! I have chills and goosebumps and all kinds of good feelings now! What a great idea!

Posted by: Maegan | 15 July 2010 at 18:14


utterly and completely moving. thank you for sharing this.

Posted by: gonzomama | 15 July 2010 at 21:00

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http://twitter.com/PostSecrets

I just saw this account when my eyes fell on the recent tweets and I immediately followed it. Everytime I read all the tweets here, my heart's crushed. I feel weak that a lot of people are sad and lonely but at the same time it inspires me to do something worthwhile for other people. Here are some of the tweets.

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Isn't life just becomes lovely when you exhaust it helping and loving people? I hope to do such great things in my life. If each one of us has these kinds of thoughts, wouldn't the world be much,much happier?

Day 88 - Is Rejuvinating

I don't know how to put this, but these are the things that are currently happening to me.


- resigned at my call center job
- has many absences for school
- not so healthy




But I'm looking forward to REJUVENATIONS.



Here is the picture that's in my mind, when I'm at my lowest.



I'll be crying and running to my father (He is Papa God, not my biological father). I'll be crying hard, repeatedly saying, "I always try to be a good girl". And he'll just brush my hair with His hands and shower me with comfort telling me, "Then just continue trying. I love you just the same." Then I'll have the strength to face the days ahead because I know He will always be ready to accept me. My father will always love me and trust me to be a good daughter. Maybe I'm not close to that yet, or maybe I am. But one thing's for sure, He cares. Endlessly.





There. That made me more comfortable. Love tank half full. Growth capacity, always full.

Day 84 - Resolutions

I work in a call center, still a front line agent. If that sounds like a jargon for you, a front line agent means you are part of the team who gets the calls first. We are a technical support team so we troubleshoot with customers then we escalate the calls to level 2 (escalations department) if we have already exhausted everything that we can try from our end. A basic call structure can actually be applied to our day-to-day activities.

1. Proper Greeting

2. Getting Customer's Concern

3. Setting Expectations/Education

4. Troubleshoot to Resolve the Issue

5. Proper Closing

Now if I translate this to a day's activity, here's how I analyze it:

1. Properly Building your Disposition for the Day

2. Identify your Day's Goals

3. Set your Mind on How these Goals will be Achieved

4. Day Proper

5. Closing the Day with a Thank You and Prayer

I had a call that lasted for almost two hours - my last call for the day. Since we went through a couple of installations, there were plenty of time for us to converse. The customer seemed to like talking that we talked about the music genres that we love to listen to, and he laughed hard when I told him I hate local rap music (specially the very offending ones, filled wit bad words and hate). I enjoyed most of the time that we were sharing our musical interests (I am working for a music software and hardware account). However, his issue was not resolved because it was an issue with the usage rights for his songs already, and I can't help him further. He needs to again find all those thousands of music that he already have on the player, burn them again and transfer them to his mp3 player. It made me sad and the fun conversation that we had ended with a very disappointing mood. I then realized that what if my vigor to resolve every customers' issue will be the same enthusiasm that I will apply to my everyday goals? That means everyday, I won't rest until I reach my goal -- idealistic but good, right?

There. So everyday, to continuously fill my love tank, I have to make sure that I end the day having much respect for myself. I'll only get that if I spend the day on something worthwhile. And when your love tank is full, you will have plenty of love to share, and plenty of good things to attract to your life. wew! Hoping I'll have this in mind -- ALWAYS. :)

I haven't done this religiously, but here is the marriage quote for this day's post:

The fulfillment of marriage is that joy in which each lover's true being is flowering because its growth is being welcomed and unconsciously encouraged by the other in the infinite series of daily decisions which is their life together.

in short

Marriage is flourished by choosing to spend your life with your partner, each day of your life.

Sweet! Can't wait for my Marius. haha (love interest of Eponine in Les Miserables)

Good night everybody!

Day 81 - Back on the Ball Game

hmm. I am happy. Definitely happy. I know there were bumps along the way (and sure there will be more bumps) but I'm gonna make sure that I'll be wiser. We should always be smarter that yesterday, right? Well, I have been crying for days. And I constantly talked to myself during those days. If I can be a very good adviser to others, I should also give that privilege to myself. And you know what, I was able to tell myself some reasonable reasons (haha). The only thing that I need is not the assurance that I will get from my teacher. I only need to prove to myself that I can conquer the fear of facing my teacher. Because all I really need is to snatch back that respect for myself with regard to studies that I am losing. Well guess what, i'm back on the game and my love tank is increasing. Love it! I'm so happy, happy, happy, happy. Looking forward to good days.

My life is not perfect. But who says I can't be happy? Life is not supposed to be perfect. Because you yourself will make your life better everyday. Room for improvement, room for achievement. wew. I am definitely a positive girl again. And even if I found out that the guy I liked likes another girl (after he just told me a few days ago that he misses me a lot and dreamed about me saying I love him), I'm still happy. I deserve much better than that. I deserve a love that will surpass the love I can give (demanding?haha). Well, my love tank's full. That's when you feel happy and lovable.

Eating cheese bread guys. Till my next post!