who am I?

who am I?
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Inspired by the Julie/Julia Project, mine is all about falling in love -- with your self, your faith, and your life. In this world where our hearts yearn for a partner, I will continue to everyday grow in a good way, till my love tank's full and ready to share that love to the man I will choose....
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6.30.2010

Day 72 - too many things to talk about

There were just too many things that have happened today and I just want to blast this post with all those stories. haha here I go!


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Being absent for work - Finally, I was absent for a reasonable reason -- sickness. Well, I don't want to discuss this thoroughly. Self-medicate and go out with people you want to be with, that'll surely cure you. Oh yeah!


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Watching ECLIPSE - Well, some might say that the movie was not satisfactory, but I disagree. The movie was not exactly a bomb, but it sure is good. I've read the book and I am open to understand that the movie's treatment would be not exactly as the book is. C'mon, a movie will just run for more than an hour and you'll have to capture the book's message on that limited time. There should be some changes. Anyway, it was good and touching ('cause it captured my favorite topics - love, saving, and marriage, hahaha ). I cried ( I always do,right). I really have a thing for Jacob's situation. It's really hard to fight for a love that is not for you. wew.. But you'll be happy on the fourth movie, he'll find his true love. Just as we are all suppose to find, if we look the right way. :D

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Spending the day with Blest - Gosh! This was particulary the HIGHLIGHT. How many times have we planned and tried to go out and we just can't (because I'm working, she lives far away from me and spends most of her time with John. hahahaha kiddin' Blest!). And today was just the day. We watched the movie together, ate at Sbarro together (both of us first time) and exchanged endless stories. What's more fun than eating, oh, I mean catching up with a friend? haha (well, it's always fun to do this while eating of course. :D ). Can't express how happy I am. Take a look at some of the pix here.




Our ECLIPSE tickets with messages for each other at the back :)








Food trip at SBARRO, yum!




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Plans, Ideas, Whatever you wanna call 'em - While me and Blest were talking, we had some bizarre, crazy but fun ideas. We want to form "The 12 Disciples". haha! Seriously. It's not really the religious type, but it's a group of 12 people hangin' out together (who wants to pose for a modern version of The Last Supper and would want to write our own Bible). We will be writing Gospels according to our views and liking -- love, faith, passion, work or even nonsense which can make sense. waa ) This will happen, one day :)








A very fulfilling day. :)











But even if I am posting my everyday life encounter here, I don't want to deviate from this blog's main purpose. Again (for those who haven't read my first post) this is a project, of taking responsibility of finding my one true love. I'm still excited to see on what day he'll come into my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm looking and not just letting destiny come to me. I make that destiny. :)

So here'e something that will add to that "love" and finally "marriage" assignment.







Blest bought me a box of marriage quotes, and everyday I will pick one to feature here in my blog for me to ponder. Here's what I've got today:


Don't marry the person you think you can live with: marry only the individual you think you can live without.
-Dr. James C. Dobson



hmmm. Well, this is a pretty and sweet thought - living only with the one that you cannot resist not being a part of your life. And if I will think who can be that person right now, only my closest friends will qualify. And that's a bit hard. I find it hard to be in a relationship with a guy I have been friends with for a long time, I treasure them so much, and I'm afraid to lose them. But who knows? One day, I'll understand. By the way, I like someone right now. We have nothing serious as of the moment, but I do like him. Let's call him D. :D



That's it for now.
Gotta prepare for work. wew






Goodnight world!



Day 71 - that thing called TIME

I am usually late. YES. The reason? hmm, maybe because I don't like waiting, i really don't. That is why I don't prepare early if ever I need to meet someone or go somewhere. But last night, I had to wait for someone because she will let me borrow our reviewer for our major subject. That reviewer will be used for our quiz. Well, I can just forget the idea and go home that night, especially because I am not feeling well and I still have work. But I waited. And when I said I waited, I really waited. And I hate the feeling. I am getting dizzy with all the people going out of the school gates. But I realized that I am the one asking for favor. I realized that if I hate waiting, how do the people I force to wait for me feel? haha I mean I know that even before. I just realized that with all I'm trying to do lately, school, work, catching up with friends, and I'm still looking for an extra work, I need to pay homage and give time importance. Not for others but for myself. Love time chel, love time.



There you go. Now, I will prepare to meet blest. We'll be watching eclipse. :D
I have high hopes. Eclipse is my favorite part of the series. Hoe the movie will be spectacular.


Chao!

6.29.2010

Day 70 - randomness (part 2)

Just woke up, getting ready for work. I listened to Kris Aquino's goodbyes to Boy Abunda, KC Concepcion and her talk shows. I cried. (and this triggered me crying over myself)




"I just want to be able to sleep at the right time for sleeping. I just want to be out there, doing what I would love to do. But I know I will bear the fruits of what I'm doing right now at the perfect time. I make my world and God guides me. If I feel alone right now, maybe Ma'am Estrada is correct, "give yourself time to adjust". So I just have to smile at the world and conquer everyday".




AJA! AJA!




prepare for work. :)

6.28.2010

Day 70 - randomness

(hard rain on the background)


just random thoughts for the day


-i just spent my afternoon talking to one of the members of our theatre group, about members and leadership
- still sad about school
-hungry for him





tired.,

6.26.2010

Day 68 - 'the' Bliss

hmmm. That is definitely right. Right? If you follow your bliss, you will feel always happy and you will go on a path that you will always love.

Nothing more to say. :)

6.24.2010

Day 67 - Loving (trying) the stubborn me

Still at home when I'm supposed to be at work. Just had a fight with my mom. Sometimes they can't just trust you. I hope there is that someone that can see the efforts that I try to give, someone that could appreciate the things that I'm trying to do.

But what if that someone is myself. Do I really need to keep looking for inspiration and happiness from other people or I just have to smile at myself and keep going my way even if they don't believe in me and even if up until now everything still feels like a challenge? My time has always been a challenge. But who can help me better than myself? Who?


Let me quote one of my favorite Sue's line at Glee.

"It's not easy to break out of your comfort zone. People will tear you down, telling you you shouldn't have bothered the first place. There's not much of a difference between a stadium full of cheering fans and an angry crowd screaming abuse at you. They're both just making a lot of noise. How you take it is up to you. Convinve yourself they're cheering for you. You do that, and someday they will."












I just have to be the bestfriend of myself.






6.23.2010

Day 66 - Thinking of Me

Here yea. I haven't updated my love project for months. I might be using this love project as my main blog as of the moment. So let's go on and discuss what I have been up to the past weeks.


I am going to gauge my love for certain areas of my life as of the moment. 5 hearts. 5 being the highest, 1 the lowest (of course). Let's begin.





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School Love - 1 star



Well, this is my blog and I am not going to fake it with myself. Yes, I am not loving school so much right now. I feel lonely, and today I just ditched all my subjects. (I attended one and there was no one in the classroom. tsk!)

I don't know if it's just the start of the irregular vibes but I'll cope up. soon :)


Quit fear Rachel!!



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Work Love - 3 stars
Just fair. I need my job because I'll be paying my tuition fee. I'll have to be very competitive. Top boxes, here I come!



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Passion Love - 5 stars

Everyday of my life, I grow hungry of theatre. And I think subconsciously, I get the satisfaction of that part of me evrytime I watch glee. And I watch glee everyday. LITERALLY. haha!


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Love Life Love - Confused

Sigh. I want him.












signing out